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Today, I definitely don't feel like myself.

I don't know why.:(

Like I feel scared of the future. I don't want break to end, I want to stay here in the comfort of my home, with my family. I want to go back to grade school or high school, I really miss the old days. It's kind of made me sad, I'm not gonna lie. Things are changing too fast and I just don't know to handle anything anymore. Time can pause now.

My home, my place, this is where I want to stay. My getaway, my happiness, my everything is here. So, why do I have to leave it all behind? Why do I have to feel like a guest in my own house, my own bedroom? It's truly hard sometimes.

But then I remember my friends, who are always there for me at school, but yet, sometimes I still feel alone. Maybe it's just me, or maybe everyone has this feeling. Sometimes I become emotionless, other times I let myself cry a little.

Growing up is hard, it really is, and I realize it more and more each day.Not knowing what each day will bring, how things will go. I need something to hold on too. Right now I just want to stay still and let everything else, everyone else move on.

Only God keeps me going at this point, cause He will always be here for me, and knowing that, makes me feel like everything will be fine no matter where I am or what state I am in.

Don't get me wrong, I'm a happy person, but hey, can't be happy all the time right.