This week.

Seriously, life is effed up. But oh well, haha, what can you do right?


Sometimes you just gotta take one thing at a time. I hate this week though

I'm really thankful for my friends though, they make even the most depressing day, into an okay day.

I really miss home.

I miss my bed.

Whatta life.

It sure is something.

I'm pissed. A quiz, 3 exams, and a presentation. Darn. I quit, haha not really ;)

But, I'm ok too, I'll laugh it off. And when I look back at this post, hopefully It'll be a less stress free day ^_^

- December 2012

:(

Today, I definitely don't feel like myself.

I don't know why.:(

Like I feel scared of the future. I don't want break to end, I want to stay here in the comfort of my home, with my family. I want to go back to grade school or high school, I really miss the old days. It's kind of made me sad, I'm not gonna lie. Things are changing too fast and I just don't know to handle anything anymore. Time can pause now.

My home, my place, this is where I want to stay. My getaway, my happiness, my everything is here. So, why do I have to leave it all behind? Why do I have to feel like a guest in my own house, my own bedroom? It's truly hard sometimes.

But then I remember my friends, who are always there for me at school, but yet, sometimes I still feel alone. Maybe it's just me, or maybe everyone has this feeling. Sometimes I become emotionless, other times I let myself cry a little.

Growing up is hard, it really is, and I realize it more and more each day.Not knowing what each day will bring, how things will go. I need something to hold on too. Right now I just want to stay still and let everything else, everyone else move on.

Only God keeps me going at this point, cause He will always be here for me, and knowing that, makes me feel like everything will be fine no matter where I am or what state I am in.

Don't get me wrong, I'm a happy person, but hey, can't be happy all the time right.

Spring Break

I haven't posted in such a long time, haha too busy I guess, always my excuse. Life's been alright. After hearing about the earthquake in Japan, I realized how fragile life really is. In one second, everything might be lost, and you'd never know how, when, where, or why. It's scary, I'm sad for the people who have lost their loved ones and will keep praying forever and ever. It will be ok. I recently learned that my brother has a heart problem, nothing too serious right now and iA it will never be, but it still made me cry. So much, it hurt. It's ok, he'll be ok, but just knowing that anything is wrong with him, makes me so sad :(. He's a great kid and I love him more than I could ever tell you. But I'll pray for him and that's all I can do, every second I think of him. At night, I always check if he's ok, still breathing when he's sleeping. I'll wake up at 3 AM and check on him. Of course he doesn't know, or he'd be like what's wrong with her haha. I care for him alot, when he's hurt, I hurt too. So, I spent a few hours crying in the bathroom, oh well.

Being in college, I know I miss out on a lot that's going on with the family. Their happiness and sadness, I wish I could always be there, but I'll try my best to be, even being far away.