Ahhh I haven't written in a long time! But now I must:)

These days, I haven't been feeling like myself. I'm constantly down, stressed, emotional. Maybe it's the stress of exams and adjusting to college life, but this feeling, it's sad. I don't know who I am or what I want anymore. I'm not doing my best, I keep messing up, I just don't know anything anymore. My friends are great and I have my family is something I know for sure, but I guess that's all.

When I started school, I told myself I'd never get into the position to feel this way. But now, I feel like a failure, but I just don't why. My motivation, energy, all gone, and I just don't know my purpose in life or where I am heading towards.

Too many lectures to go to and exams to take, too many people to meet, too many people to impress, too many attitudes of people I have to take, too many sleepless nights, too much forgetfulness, too many days of not knowing what to do, too many mistakes, too many wishes, too many hopes, too many dreams, too many broken hearts, too many tears, too many worries.

I just don't know and I pray this feeling will go away soon as time passes. Maybe I have forgotten the important things in life. I've forgotten how not to worry and how to be happy. This isn't me, where has the old me gone? I don't even know :( I know nothing right now, nothing at all. I feel so lonely, yet I have so many caring people around me.

I.....just...don't know

and I wish I did

I guess I just have to be patient and wait

and everything will soon be okay

But right now, nothing is :(